ON LOCK DOWN!!!!

Let me start by saying I hate the HOSPITAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am going crazy in here. I have been here for one week, and I would give anything to be home with my family. I miss these faces....




Reasons I cannot go home...out of control blood sugar, spiking blood pressure,two minute apart contractions, swelling around my spine that is pressing on nerves (which is very uncomfortable), blah blah blah. A lot of reasons. So, I am left staring at the walls and watching way to much TV, eating nasty hospital food, (salads, tuna fish, and turkey), and e-mailing when I can. Hopefully, the baby will decide and to come out sooner than later. All I need is to dialate one more cm or have my water break and I am good to deliver. Then it would be only four days after the C-section.

I have to say my husband is superman right now, he is playing single dad and doing an AWESOME JOB! I am so proud of him and appreciate him so much. He might be going crazy inside, but he is not showing any signs. He has started his vacation of three weeks today, and probably will be going crazy by Friday. The kids will do that to you...but we have a great support base between family and friends to help him out if needed. I miss my TayTay and my Reaganne and all her questions. They seem so big when they come to see me. Taylor is confused and unsure of what is going on, but Reaganne is excited and knows the baby is coming home with mommy. I just miss them all so much. I hate being away. I love you Randy, Reaganne and Taylor and you all are in Mommy's heart and on my mind every minute!